SCATTERED AND RANDOM!

Well let me get straight on here with some things I ponder and cannot figure out by myself okay!?

• WHAT HAPPENED TO MY OLD DA!? I CANNOT FIGURE OUT HOW TO SUBMIT LET ALONE CODE MY JOURNALS ANYMORE, EVEN CUSTOM BOXES AND CONTENT HOLDERS ARE DO DAMNED OVERLY COMPLICATED. I HAD NO PROBLEM WITH THE WAY WE HAD EVERYTHING BEFORE, DID YOU? Deviant-Art, please make us happy, we shouldn't have to become master customizers in advanced CSS and HTML in order to express our basic thoughts. Come on!! I know I speak the truth too much and you hold it against us dissidents, but gee whiz guys, we should have a choice NOT TO HAVE TO USE STASH WRITER FOR our basic needs. Thank you!Why

• Well I'm going to just come right out and say this: What the hell is with the 'add media'? I've had not two answers the same on our permissions. In fact I no longer care, if it's going to work for me, I will use it, otherwise to wade through the piles of bull that some members have for the rules to use something they gave to the public, then at least can we know the rules in a clear and simple manner?? Just saying....
  

• Okay. I accidentally joined a lot of groups when I was a newbie here. Over the past year I've deleted all but the ones I use a lot. However, 85% of those groups I withdrew my membership in and unwatched, still show up in the place of groups that should have replaced the old ones. For example, when we submit to a group and we begin typing an "th.." in my case it will automatically finish typing for me "The Photo Critic" (just one example). Why can't it go away, I deleted myself from being 'critiqued' in 2012? Over 200 groups will auto finish for me that I've either deleted or never even joined. I cannot find one who understands what I am saying. Perhaps I am the only one?
  

• I enjoy being a deviant art member. I suppose you do too! I have a Facebook account but in no way shape, or form have time to manage both. I recognize the fact that I am simply not that talented as a photographer. I am told this quite often where I live now. However, I don't care because I'm creating in my own way an art form of expression through my own eyes and mind. During some past trauma, I lost my voice and DA let's me take the time and do what I want to have regained that voice, thank you. So I don't know why I get a lot of traffic all of a sudden and I'm not complaining-I love it so much! I have so many friends having at once, had none. So to me I am living a dream come true! My concern or question I keep thinking of is this in a way: How do we manage such a variance in our routines when it's not possible to explain it because-we're happy about it but at the same time, losing friends because of neglect. I would love to either write a collaborated tutorial or just find one that EXPLAINS WHAT ONE WOULD RATIONALLY AND LOGICALLY DO WHEN THEIR PAGE VIEWS HAVE GONE FROM A NORMAL AMOUNT TO A VERY LARGE AMOUNT IN A RELATIVELY SHORT PERIOD OF TIME! I do hope one of you at least is comprehending me!

        I was very overwhelmed in a good way, that a couple weeks ago, I realized you can check the number of Watchers you have, and I had now 2,000!

        Wow, a total dream! But last year at this time, I was waiting for a comment, a note, anything at all!! Ha ha, now I'm just not sure how to do it!!

• In the past few months, I have lived with other deviants. I was amazed how some members actually only look for this number of people on their page. Why? I never pay attention to your page views except when there's one of you I go to return a llama or thank for a favorite, or see an art piece to look at...that I will see 1,500,9999 page views!!! Ha ha, well I can't comprehend that! But gee whiz, at least in my personal home life, it's all I hear about. It makes me feel inadequate to be told I'm just not a good artist and that I shouldn't have a very large social life here as I am just not being fair to those with talent. It hurts my feelings when my intentions were never and are still not-to profit from what I already profit from in my heart, not my wallet. I enjoy my deviant life. I enjoy you. I enjoy every individual as 'art' themselves as well as the 'art' they create. Don't we all bring something unique to the table? Yes I think so. But I digress. I'd love to hear from any one of you who have ideas on a tutorial or a system of managing our pages as we grow socially, artistically, and by giving another what they are looking for that 'speaks to our hearts', that makes us all very happy! I'm not happy knowing I'm guilty of not being able to handle a large DA page without some guidance. I am embarrassed when I know I feel I've neglected one of you and don't mean to, but you still favorite or comment to me I want to do for you what you've done for me, and if not to do for another in need what you've given me. I love to give llamas, it is fun to press buttons and make someone smile! I don't always have the ability to immediately return one given, but I do love giving them to another who I happen to come upon their page and see I haven't yet. It all works out I believe!!

Okay now the fun part for me!! And I know I've forgotten the other 1,000 questions I have for now!! I need to spill my guts, oh boy do I ever! I love to write. I surely do. So I'm going to write a bit, then get some work done okay!

I am one of those who wear their heart on their sleeves. I am bound by my conscious and my emotions as most of us are. It's always a bad mix when those who are have come into some close contact with those who are not. My anxiety level has been through the roof for too long. I am -with the help of an actual angel, a dear, dear friend, not trapped in this cycle much longer. I am getting on with my life. I feel I've seen enough of the bad in the world for many lifetimes, let alone just one! I'm not thriving and in fact, they'd medically say that I am "Failing To Thrive". So I must do some thriving now! I made the ultimate decision that I wish to thrive not continue dying. I am alone as far as family, children, a husband, or pet. But I know due to you all that I'm not alone. I love you for your love. But I can be a wimp. I've allowed myself to be used and walked upon. I am not leaving DA...just the opposite. However I will need to be offline for at least a few days. Will you bare with me during my brief absence please? Don't be upset if I've not followed up on my duties to follow up, I know who you are! I have changes in my immediate future that I can either accept and roll with for my own sanity or not, I could remain a 'nice person' and never do anything to upset another, but at what cost? I feel and this might sound esoteric, but soon it will become clear...the benefits  of my decision to change surely...the benefits to me outweigh the risks to another. That's all for now, I will write you again soon. Thanks for any feedback on some of my anxiety concerns, listening and caring. I love you, Audra!