DENIED RESPITE ....

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Frank Jirouch's 1928 bronze sculpture, Night Passing the Earth to Day.

Hello my friends. I think that today I cannot find any reason to hope. All these long months of such suffering and dread, I had something finally to look forward to...relief of that suffering when I finally got to this 'world renowned' Cleveland Clinic Pain Management Program appointment. They not only did nothing for two hours except take thousands of dollars from me, but told me to call them for physical therapy when I got my 'disease under control' in a few months. I can't stop crying, not once today, hours and hours and hours, still the tears keep coming. I haven't slept in so long, I thought by this time tonight, I would begin to learn to live for at least a little while, with some reprieve from this relentless agony. Screw them. I hope they all suffer too....but I don't really. This was my last hope my friends, why won't they help me?? I am a human being! What do I do now, and why even care to go on any further, if a dog or cat is allowed some dignity not to suffer horribly, why can't I? We? I just give up and sort of understand this sculpture, it's a relentless cycle, for good or ill.

Thanks for reading and thanks for all you have done for me, love Audra